Church

I don't go to church. I wasn't brought up going to church, and typically if I am in a church there is a wedding or funeral going on. Nothing against church, just isn't who I am right now and don't know if I ever will be a churchgoer. I believe in some greater power or powers, but I have a hard time believing that there is only one right belief. How would you know yours was right? What makes one more right than another? Since I don't have these answers I have always chosen to just leave religion be. All that being said, a church is the main sponsor of this challenge, so I went to their services today.

Since I don't attend church, I have no real idea how much like other churches in our area their services were, but it was definitely not like any service I have ever been too. Lots of big screens, singing with a band, and preaching. I felt like I was in a really well orchestrated Christian karaoke. I don't mean that to be insulting, that's just what it felt like to me. Didn't really feel like my cup of tea, but to each their own. As part of the challenge, they are asking that we attend services each Sunday. Now this would only be 6 services, but just not sure I can do this aspect. I could attend with an open mind and try and get something out of the services, but it sorta feels like cheating or betraying my true beliefs by going and standing along with people who actually are committed to this faith. Now the whole program is free, so perhaps I owe it to them to make an attempt to attend their services? I'm sure there are all sorts of people that attend church and get nothing out of it. People go to all sorts of events they aren't interested in out of obligations or what they feel are obligations.

So, we will see what I decide to do on this aspect of the program. I can't decide if I feel like a poser, or if I owe it to the sponsors to at least give them a chance to preach to me. I am committed to making a spiritual change to accept working out and eating better as part of my life. I am fully behind letting go of guilt and other psychological fun stuff, but I haven't decided if this change includes me giving religion a try. Right now I just am not convinced. We will see were I am next Sunday.